Thanks for all of the good thoughts everyone. Sorry that I haven't posted any more updates since Monday. Aside from continuing my obsession with hpts, I was basically in a holding pattern until I got today's test results. My beta this morning was pretty quick and almost painless. At this point in the game, I started to shift into autopilot when I have an early morning appointment at the RE's office. Before I left the clinic, I specifically instructed them to call me on my cell phone and to not leave me a message because I wanted to talk to whoever in person. After the appointment, I rushed off to work and parked my cell phone within arms reach for the entire morning.
My office closed early this afternoon, so I hussled as much as possible so that I could also leave early. I never walked away from my cell phone for more than two seconds, and when I hadn't heard from them by the time I got off the El I assumed they hadn't gotten around to calling me yet. Of course as soon as I walked in the door, I saw the blinking light on the answering machine. I cursed as I heard the voice of one of the nurses from my clinic calling to congratulate me on my positive beta.
The official number: 789.
So that's the story, so far. In his message the nurse also told me to come back on Monday for a repeat beta (I thought it should have been sooner, but what do I know?) I called M and gave him the news, and I think he was just as stunned and cautious about the results as I am. We agreed that we wouldn't volunteer the news to anyone just yet, and if anyone asks we're supposed to tell them that so far it looks good but we're still waiting for more info from my RE. I can't help being so nervous about all of this, but the truth is I'm terrified that I'll have yet another miscarriage. But I am trying to get into a more positive mindset, I just think it will just take some time. Now I just hope that I can keep things quiet tomorrow, because I'm just not ready for everyone in the tri-state area to know what's going on (which is exactly what will happen if M's family is permitted to run with this bit of news.) Maybe if I wow everyone with my baking skills I can distract them from asking about the outcome of this cycle.
Crap, I sound really negative about my good news. Sorry about that too. I am happy about my positive beta, really, I'm just really nervous too. Oh well. Hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving!
That's a really nice, strong beta. Congratulations! I'm so very, very happy for you.
Much love coming your way this Thanksgiving holiday and keeping my fingers crossed for a good number on Monday.
Posted by: Emily | November 24, 2004 at 04:24 PM
Yeah!!!!
Posted by: shannon | November 24, 2004 at 04:37 PM
Whee!!! I'm going to be excited for you!! Yay!!
Posted by: lindaby | November 24, 2004 at 09:26 PM
YEAH! YEAH! A million congrats to you and hubby!
How many dpt were you today? That number seems awfully high to me ;-) Mine was 806 at 16 dpt and there are two in there . . .
Best news I've heard all day!
Posted by: Heather | November 24, 2004 at 10:21 PM
Correction. I was at 806 at 16 days past retrieval, not transfer. So that's where you are today right?
I'm getting some serious multiples vibes here. :-)
Posted by: Heather | November 24, 2004 at 10:23 PM
Congratulations - what a wonderful way to celebrate the holiday!
Posted by: Diana | November 24, 2004 at 10:29 PM
Fantastic news!! I am so happy for you!! Have a wonderful holiday weekend.
Posted by: Nina | November 25, 2004 at 07:45 AM
Yes! And I can understand how you can't feel at ease just yet. No need to apologize.
Posted by: ankaisa | November 26, 2004 at 03:06 AM
Thats awesome. Its an awesome feeling.
Posted by: kath | November 26, 2004 at 06:28 AM
Congrats on that awesome beta. Sending lots of good wishes that today's number exponentially increases!
Posted by: Dee | November 29, 2004 at 07:31 AM